I am here because of love

Dieter F. Uchtdorf recorded a video sharing how he hears the communication from our Heavenly Father. I believe 100% he does as it is part of his job description so to speak.

He said that it is when he is full of love and gratitude that he feels closest to God and can comprehend our father's love for us, and it is in that environment that he gets impressions.

I had said a vocal prayer in a location that I had felt impressed to choose and stood up entirely alone, but, still I absolutely knew that I was heard and understood, but the impression I got was to return to my phone app and listen to the various apostles sharing how they hear him...which is a tad unrelated to my sincerely question. But, I still wanted to give my appreciation back... mostlyfor the hug that totally changed my life. It was random and unexpected, so I knew it was sincere and not necessarily caused by some logical antecedent.  I felt like it was a thankyou from my Savior. He was thanking me? There is a primary song that is called help us to understand, or wait maybe it is just called the sacrament. Either way I sing it as I prepare for church attendance on Sundays, one lyric states that when I think about all that has been done for me I want to serve and I do so thankfuly. I sometimes feel like a failure, but I really really want to minister to these children, and amidst it all, one very young boy walked up and hugged me and said, "I love you so much." Wow! Mary and I had just been talking about how neither of us see ancestors or feel them in the temple like Dad does, but we definitely feel the spirit, and both of us said that it makes us want to just hug someone and tell them how much we love them.

Also, sister Naumen was speaking about the miracle answer I got in response to my prayer, and she said, "I was told to make sure you understood that you were loved. That was pretty much the exact message, if you ask, the response was because I love you so much." So, I am left feeling that I really ought to express my gratitude, for that "tender mercy" I was given.

My mind is flooded with other times and situations when it was undeniable that Heavenly Father is aware of me and had the time to let me know.  One of which I cannot say anything about because, I said that I wouldn't  if I could know the things I wondered.

1) my talents

2) my health

3) my children

I truly am highly favored, man!

4) my parents

5) my education

I could go on and on and on and on, you get the point, no? I have almost too much to be thankful for. It would seems inconceivable to ask for anything more.

2024

I feel soooo thankful that I got to see Gavin, and he is such a very good person!!! He drove after work all of the way to spend Christmas with us! And then after dinner turned and went back to spend time with his dad and be back in work again today! And my parents did all of the work to make dinner and give us all so much Christmas money. I ate soooo much. I loved it. If I had ever felt more thankful I honestly do not remember when that was. I had a perfect day, well, I honestly would have liked to see Lena and Brooksie in person, but, they are adults now and do as they please. It was a very nice Christmas, and one of my institute students gave me a Christmas ornament. That is just the topping on the cake, or and to top that, Mary woke up and exited herhoom and promptly hugged me then went back to her room!

Live is really good sometimes!

not gratitude but equally wooo woo

I am in the same state of mind as when I began this gratitude journal. 

Have you ever been stuck? The best way to demonstrate it is through a song by Anna in Frozen II ( https://youtu.be/kFkClV2gM-s?si=atKwvt_xIQmH5vv3 )

I started a gratitude Journal to get my thoughts/mind off something I could no longer do that I thought defined me. It worked, but, it seems like something from an out there self love/help book. But, I am trying to eradicate a behavior to waste my time hence my life on things that do not allow my focus to be on what it ought to be.

When I was a teenager. I was at this sort of conference where there were classes but, no one said to take any, and many of the classes were denied to anyone without the prerequisites.  I got lucky and figured the entire situation out instantly, this was life! And many leaders were confusing other teens not in getting them to do bad things, that would be too obvious, but by causing focus on things like video games, immediate comforts, etc many were kept from using their time adequately to qualify for their intended goal... got it?

So, I keep returning to games to make money to accomplish my big purposes. But, this morning, I had the best idea, although when I explained it to my daughter it truly sounded like a "new age" "out there" "crazy" idea.

I am doing it, partially right now. The idea is that I resolve to become a wiser person. It is not even January, can I make resolustikn right now? Sure. So, I have started running and practicing my piano daily, and right now I am trying to get in the routine of always resting a few hours each day.

We watched a television game show where people are sleep deprived and asked to do the simplest tasks and they fail. I have been sleep deprived for years, and thought, I bet that is effecting my brain. So, to become wiser, I am going to rest each day, and make that as important as any other thing like exercise or scripture study.

Trouble I'd that when I lay down my brain goes into overdrive reminding me of everything I ought to he accomplishing. So, I sit or lay and play games trying to convert my time into money because I need to be able to afford a few things to improve my life.... well, those games are wasting my life and intentions and making my life worse, so I will as soon as I am done here, deny myself any device for a few hours per day, so I must rest and maybe be more deliberate in my time spent using my phone. Also, my bad director chastized me when I started presenting all of my valid excuses for not being able to practice, he just said, "where there's a will there's a way." I will find a better way to get the things that I need to improve my life.

So, like a gratitude journal to replace despondency with gratitude, I hope to replace device dependence with peace of mind, through rest.

Just general gratitude

Maybe, this is going to be a great year, if the tale is true that you repeat the same thing throughout the year as you do first.

Yesterday was just, well, good, suprisingly good in everyway. Now,  I'm sining that song "..it's gonna be a good life..good good life"

Really, it was magical how everything seemed to denote general goodness and I was so happy, that I started to contemplate things in a more eternal perspective, cause I could sort of see a break in the clouds!

I am so thankful for life today. I think I'll keep it, instead of a do over, I am just glad for the choices I made cause they lead me here, with my mindset so I can fix anything awry.

To top that, my daughter just called me clever and I think that she ised the word knowingly!

Monday, december 12, 2016

1) being able to conclude what I believe is true.
2) Christians
3) availability of information
4) Hot Cocoa and Goodies
5) A family
6) Children who want to do what is right
7) unforced humility
8) millions of opportunities even when I choose wrong
9) a beautiful body that I am pleased to have forever!
10) Being a safe distance from the sun to appreciate it without it killing me.

THANKSGIVING 2016

This ought to be interesting to see how life has changed. It is not preconcieved I just woke up and thought that I ought to try this.

1) my children and all the magic that surrounds them
2) such an able and strong body
3) great ideas
4) neighborly friends
5) a few nagging suspicions that I am loved
6) warm place to live (somewhere to belong)
7) Yarn
8) food to feed my family
9) being close enough to things to walk and someone who will take the kids to school when I cannot walk with them.
10) Great teachers to suplement my educational goals for my kids!!!

Today should be easy

My children
Feeling appreciated
Food and drink
The truth where ever it is
TV
Clothing and shoes
Friends
Music and all representations of beauty
Loving parents

November 2014

1) Joseph
2) Mary Anne
3) ability to pray
4) being born to my parents in America
5) hope of things still happening in my life
6) ability to accept things and endure them
7) ideas
8) water
9) being needed
10) ability to walk unaided

So grateful for everything today!

1) my teeth
2) my parents
3) my children!
4) Holly Bkackhurst
5) Shayna Clark
6) Brandy Lewis
7) Lotus Rummler
8) my siblings and that they found such awesome spouses
9) Prayer
10) Ideas (they rescue me from peril, like mcgyver, all the time)

Last Sunday in September

1) books
2) histories
3) comprehension of truths
4) my parents
5) hope
6) water
7) ability to walk
8) prayer
9) my life
10) children

Easter 2014

I made it. I am looking back on all of my life with a giant hurrah! Grateful that I never needed to be grateful for

A kiss to...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=unHAvQUpW74&feature=youtube_gdata_player

The things that make me thankful

1)Brandall's kindness
2)Deanna Hirschi
3)Warmth
4)Health
5)unfailing faith in things that make no sense...
6)prayer
7)scriptures and pat. Blessing, oh and hymns
8)all people who are trying to love. They really really make me thankful.
9)My life
10) repentance

May 14, 2013

1) Joseph & Mary (my little niece quizically asked, "Joseph and Mary? Does that make her a niece?" like that I'm my own grandpa song)

2) Brooksie, Lena, & Gavin
3) Dreams
4) Friends
5) Surprises
6) Opportunities/ Options, Whatever you call them...
7) Peace
8) Such a nice body, though it cannot do something I want it to, I think it was intended.
9) Faith and hope
10) Electricity
11) Water!!!

Little things...

1) My children
2) My sense
3) people who love me enough
4) My parents
5) Role models
6) videos for everything
7) no cell phone
8) Night time
9) Willful children
10) the ability to walk!